{big day today}

 

 

Michelle Pennington via Cassie Detering

 

Big day today.

I start my Lupron shots tonight! 

I just can't believe our Embryo Adoption transfer is a little less than a month away and I am already starting my shots. I am so excited. I just can't explain how much this means to us.

 It is everything that we want.

It is our chance for our family to begin.

I am so overwhelmed with joy.

 

But.

Honestly, the past few days I have been kinda a mess.

I admit it, I have cried....way more than once. 

 

 Thankfully my husband and my mom were very supportive and made me feel better though.

I'm just super emotional.

I am scared and nervous. 

 

I have so much hope that this will work for us and we will be able to start our family, but like everything in life, there are no guarantees. We have been through so much to get to this point over the past 8+ years and I truly believe that everything we have been through has been for a reason and has lead us to and through this Embryo Adoption journey.

I just pray that this is our answer.

I pray that these are our babies (or baby).

I pray they are meant for us and our life as a family can begin. 

 

I want to see my husband be a father. 

I want to be big and pregnant - well maybe not the big part. 

I want to go shopping with my Mom and sister and buy cute little baby shoes.

I want to decorate a nursery. 

I want to hear their first words, even if it's "dada". 

I want to watch this little person grow everyday and learn. 

I want to hear my Dad called "Grandpa" and take them fishing at my parents house. 

I want Easter egg hunts and birthday parties and school photos. 

I want my friends and family to celebrate with us. 

This child will be loved. I can promise you that.

 They will be cherished everyday.

 

I am so grateful for an amazing husband who has been by my side always and for a wonderful family who has supported us every step of the way. I also have awesome friends and co-workers and people I meet everyday that offer me prayers and support. I am so grateful.

 

Now I just need prayers.

Lots & lots of prayers. 

 

 

Our embryo transfer date is November 15th, 2012.